Stress.

It is SO hard to date someone with an ex-wife.  SO hard.  The Pilot can go from happy and upbeat to angry and resentful in a nano-second... all because of an email or text from her (not directed at me, obviously... but I sure see a different side of him).  I get it: she cheated on him... they had a lousy marriage even besides that... they are struggling to make decisions amicably.  It is hard on him.

...and yet, somehow all I can think about is... Can I really do this?  Can I sign up for years and years of interactions and huge amounts of stress brought on by this women and his reactions to her?

I feel like I'm being really selfish and that I should be more understanding... but it is HARD.  I have minor issues with my ex.  We bicker about little things and schedule changes... but I trust him with our kids and his new girlfriend doesn't bother me.  He doesn't cause me nearly the anguish that the Pilot seems to get from his ex.

I need a little space from this ex issue... but it is here, every. single. day.  So hopeful that it starts to fade away as things get worked out between them.